What makes me happy..

Being an ultimate bum, it's such a good thing that pirated DVDs of Korean dramas exist here on earth. Being not so updated (well besides knowing My Fair Lady and Queen Seon Deok 선덕여왕 [고맙습니다 영두야]), Mel told me that the drama 미남이시네요/You're Beautiful is a good one. So I was able to buy a copy last Saturday. It's been a long time since I watched a full drama series. The last might be Coffee Prince? I'm not so sure. College life takes away your DVD marathon times. So I am happy now that at least I am able to watch one.

Korean dramas make me happy. They really do. It was through Korean dramas that my dream of going to Korea started. I think the first Korean drama in the Philippines is Song Hye Gyo's Endless Love: Autumn in my Heart 가을동화. But I really became hooked with Full House, also starred by Song Hye Gyo. At first, I wanted to go to Korea because I want to see the filming sites of these dramas. But later on, I just wanted to go to Korea for no 'ultra deep' reason. Just my deep desire to visit and experience that country. We can simply say, I fell in love with Korea. Deeply. Maybe I should also say thanks to the Hallyu 한류 or the Korean wave. :)

All my life, the only lucid dream that I had was going to Korea. And I am very glad that it did came true. Thanks to Ma'am Marcia and to the exchange student program of the UP OEC. So I was in Korea from Feb 2009-Jan 2010. The experience was superb. Not only was I able to go to some drama sites, but I also met a lot of friends, learned and experienced a lot of things, and fell in love with Korea more. I feel like Korea is my second home. A place where I plan to live in the near future. Hopefully.

Last Monday, Feb 15, it has already been a month since I arrived from Korea. As I mentioned in my previous posts, the sudden transition was really hard for me. But after weeks of pensive thinking, I was quite able to move on and start anew. And after that Korea experience, I could say that I had somehow quite devised a plan for my future. Before, my future was really blank. I really don't know what to do and where to go after graduation. Yes, I will definitely have to work. But as to specific plans, I really had nothing.

Yes, I might have been to some soul searching, as someone accidentally "theorized" about my situation. Yes, during the first few weeks I was really in the state that I cannot yet accept the fact that I am back; that I already have to face the "real reality". The first two weeks were really the hardest for me. I was floating, confused, stressed out, depressed, sad, longing, problematic. I was problematic about the past, present, and future. But due to an immature decision someone jumped into, maybe I was able to "sort things out".

I am happier with my life now. Much more happier. Oha. But I don't regret anything that I did in the past. Whether it be about my acads, my work, my time, my friends, family, love, and life--I don't regret any. I don't regret all the tears that I've cried. As through them I know I became a better person--stronger and more mature. It's just sometimes quite unfortunate that we have to learn things the hard way. ;) But wait, that's where learning really comes, right? :) I don't regret every single decision that I made. I hope. I also had some misdoings in the past, but who doesn't make any mistake? We're humans, right? But as I told one of my friends, Dale, I may have made mistakes, but I am not pathetic and immature enough to avoid a confrontation. Only losers escape. Only insecure people avoid confrontations. Only childish people are selfish. Only narrow minded people don't understand the bigger picture. I hope I will be able to avoid any of those attitudes. And the most important thing is standing up again after that big fall.

So I should shine and make a new start. Be more positive about life. There are a lot of surprises waiting to be discovered. There are a lot of things that will make me happy. It's just a matter of perspective. [Pragmatism, anyone? Pardon me this time, sociology] :)

Happiness can be found even from the smallest things around us.

Last Saturday, the most awaited Kat-Bea day finally came! :) I was really happy to spend time with my bestest friend ever, Bea. We went to Intramuros. Finally! But we were quite disappointed because we were not able to explore the totality of the place. :( But hey, we were still able to cam-whore! :) Then, the coffee and our warm conversation is the real highlight of our date. Oh, I really missed that bonding of ours! :D Thank you ever Bea, despite your hectic sched. Poster, anyone? Hehe. And thank you for taking care of me during that "dying" moment of mine. :))

Bea's cute color pencils :)

engk.

Bea, in an attempt to be a model ;) *wink*

a cathedral in Intra. i forgot the name. hihi.

an old building ;)

Chinatown bridge

Sunday night, I was able to eat tikoy (Chinese new year pudding) after a long time. I can really feel the Lunar New Year, more than the Valentines' Day. Haha. This feeling is weird for me. I have never been particular about the lunar new year, ever. :)) I feel like this is a big holiday for me :)) And then at night, my elementary friends gave me a surprise visit. So we had a spontaneous Valentines' Day date. Thanks, Allenn! :) I really feel thankful to my elementary friends because after all these times, they are still there. We are still friends. The bond is amazing. :)

Photo opt with Bong Revilla ^^ Hehe.

at the park. stolen balloons from Camalig resto's Vday decorations. haha.

My Monday was devoted into talking with someone special to me. :) Even though we always talk everyday, about really nothing in particular, I still always find happiness talking with that person. :) I could just practically spend my whole time taking with that person. But what a bummer I had to sleep at least around 12am or my body would give up. ㅠㅠ

I went to the doctor on Tuesday and Wednesday to find out that I got urinary tract infection (UTI), a bacterial infection in the urinary tract. I suspect it has something to do with me eating lots of sweet and salty food. And not really being a fan of drinking lots of water. But I am still quite worried about my health. I always have had headache for the past few weeks. I suspected I am low blood. But the doctor told me that maybe I'm just stressed out. So she advised me to have a stress detection ECG something, where I have to be running in the treadmill while having the ECG. Anyway, I plan to do that sometime in the future. Hmm. For now, I just have to monitor my sleep. I should get at least 8 hours a day. I the doctor also advised me to drink 2-3 liters of water a day. How can I possibly do that? @_@ Maximum water intake for me is 3 glasses per day. Argh.

Anyway, it was Ash Wednesday but I was not able to have ash on my forehead. I forgot about it during the latter part of the day. It was already 8pm when I remembered it. ㅠㅠ

For now, these are some of the things that make me happy. And I am trying and I am actually being positive about my future. It's still difficult, but at least I have to have the positive attitude about it.

Watching Korean dramas really make me feel happy. And I am feeling the happiness-sadness-kilig-anger--ah, basta mixed emotions that only Koreanovelas could give! :D Two days ago, I was angry at UEE's 유이 (of After School) character. Today I was touched and sad about the mishaps of Shin Woo 신우 (정영화). Anyway, 미남이시네요 is about a girl (Go Mi Nyu) who disguised as a guy to cover up for her brother (Go Mi Nam) as a band member. She falls in love with Hwang Tae Kyung (장근석), who is the leader of the band. But Shin Woo, another member of A.N.JELL band, also knows her real identity, and secretly loves her. Tonight, I was able to watch until the middle of episode 6. And the scene with Min Nyu and Shi Woo made me teary eyed. Aww. Love. ♥

Anyway, Korean dramas give me a positive feeling about my future. Haha. It intensifies my desire of going back to Korea again! I must work hard for that future, ayt? :) But for now, I have to sleep because it's already 1am. Ahh, when will the video finish uploading?? ㅠㅠ